HEAR ME out

If I knew myself, I’d tell you.
If i had just one more time to tell you that i loved you I would.
Just to feel your warmth again is all i want.
I haven’t given up on you but you did on me.
And I’m sorry that i have become such a disappointment to you.
To this.
I wish you knew how much you meant to me.
If i could call you to tell you one last time that i love you i think you’d understand why I decided to part ways.
And no it wasn’t you.
It was me.
I had to get space to clear my mind.
Inside of me i am very toxic.
But if i knew
That i was pushing the only person who could of loved me away i would of held on.
You loved me through it all.
Through the good and the bad.
And i loved you too.
It was me who wasn’t throughly enough.
It was me who was not good enough for you!
I know it was my fault that i gave up on you.
You deserved better than me.
I was broken, kinda still am. You deserved everything that i could never provide.
Maybe in another life time you’ll see that i was only trying to protect and love you from a far.
I wasn’t trying to hurt you.
I’d never want to hurt you.
Because i loved you.
God damn it.
I loved you.
And
It hurts to know that you’ll never know that i loved you because now its to late.